Why must Adults act like children? Or Why I like city life...

For the past few years I have been living in an apartment unit in my parents residence and it is a beautiful neighborhood that is mostly a retirement community.  I cannot believe the behind the back high school level bickering and rude behavior that goes on here!  I actually miss the suburban neighborhood that I grew up in where non of the neighbors new or talked to each other!  People in this neighborhood smile at you and wave whenever you go by and talk to you when you are on a walk and then they talk about you to the other neighbors and snip about every little thing that bothers them.  It is as bad if not worse than when I was dealing with gossip in High School.  My parents always told me that it is important to act like an adult but really is this how adults behave?  I am appalled by what I have seen here and I cannot wait to get back to the city where my neighbors will mind their own darn business

(Oh and I am also ready for a whole lot less snow!)

Why can't we all get along?

I have seen so many sisters out there that really do get along well and enjoy spending time together.  Even in spite of great differences they can come together and hang out without having a single fight or bickering at all.  I would honestly love it if that were the case with my sister and me.  I love her but I am sad to say I really don't like her.  She is a wonderful Auntie and I will always encourage my daughter to love her and want to be around her.  My sister and I just don't agree on much of anything or get along.

I am not a person to hold grudges but I have to admit that I am still hurt by her.  I am hurt that she barely spoke to me for a year after I had my daughter because she thinks so little of me that she was angry that I had a baby.  She felt that I did not deserve to have a child when she did not have one yet.  I didn't make all the right choices like she did or take the path she chose.  The thing of it is she has screwed up a lot.  I don't judge her for her choices and I just want her to be happy.  I am excited when something good happens in her life and she is jealous when something great happens in mine that she thinks she deserves more than me.  Am I so wrong in thinking that is messed up?! 

 I know I am not perfect by any means but I would like to at the very least be respected by my sister and somehow I know that will never happen.  One of the reasons I feel so alone living out here in the middle of nowhere is that I don't even have anyone to call to talk to about things.  I can't call my sister and expect to have a real conversation where she does not pick on me.  Heck I can't even call and expect her to not be to busy with other things to pick up...

Here is to all the younger sisters who feel like their sister never wanted them to be around.  (Before I was born my sister asked my mom for kittens instead.)